Do you guys remember my Today’s Bangles post titled Solid Gold Lumberjack? Well, I went ahead and engraved my dad’s watch and I picked it up the other day. What do you think?
I remember so clearly rubbing that glass bump on the face of the watch while my dad wore it. And the calluses on his palm, this weird wart that grew under his ring finger (that he had removed eventually), and his nicely trimmed nails. Now I have just his Rolex. So I’m wearing it, the Elsa Peretti X, and the Mexican cuff. All gifts from him.
Ready for some crossed musical references and sorrow? Who isn’t, right?!
Today’s bangles: baby blue carriage silhouette, Clic Cla à Pois, skinny Calèche rouge, and a silver New York charm bracelet.
Now, I’m not much of a fan of either NY or charm bracelets, but seeing as how my dad was born there and gave me this charm bracelet, I find it’s a nice remembrance of him. Today I paired it with a reminder of things I regret. The thing with his passing is the volume of regret I carry with me. This Clic Clac à Pois bracelet is a small example. Last Christmas he gave me some other pattern, and wretched thing that I am I swapped it for the one I preferred. This action was nothing then and stabs me in the gut now. I feel like I betrayed him. He selected something for me, specially for me, and I traded it in. I don’t think he would ever hold this against me, but my heart aches for doing it.
Please play me a song, Lou Reed, to ease me through this.